damn my life is soooo hectic now i lost my best friend and realised it was all a lie all the smiles and jokes, all the trust everything, i never made her happy like she made me... i loved that girl so much she wasnt just a friend anymore she was my sister, but it was a lie for a year long i lived in a lie...

she made me make the biggest mistake of my life! i met this boi when became really close friends dated for a short while but because of her we broke up... 3 months passed i already had a new boi but me and that 'friend' never talked anymore untill i told him that i really still lovew him and i made the biggest mistake of my life! we started to get close again but i wasn't sure who i want more untill today, i finally made up my mind and realised my heart has been with him since i met my friend i told him that and i got turned down, i risked my whole heart and he shatterd it! the person i trusted the most broke my heart because the thing is he never told me the truth he had a girl that i didn't know of... i still love him even though i know we will never be again...
all this tanx to her!

he showed me love the real thing. no matter what happens i will always love him even if im not good enough anymore. ill always love you jacqi always!

life sucks so much on the one side but is so fantastic on the other side my dream came true im a model! and i can't share my happiness ith anyone because i lost my two best friends!

i learned a good lesson today... you must follow your heart but thats not the importand thing you must follow God, never be afraid to say how you feel, speek your mind, you might loose everything like i did.